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I sleep in the clouds, dream in the sky,
I hold fast to my dreams
Because if my dreams die
I would never be the same
I’ll keep dreaming as life passes me by,
Sometimes I think to my self a life with out dreams
Jermarcus wouldn’t be sane,
Sometimes I dream of happiness, a life without pain,
If that was true I would invite all into my dream
In my dreams everybody the same

Life is calling, now I’ll have to wake up,
But why when the real world is more like a nightmare,
I feel safe in my wonderland,
Hope was the last poem which went to all my close friends
this poem here is to all the dreamers that understood,
no matter what they say…
keep your dreams but don’t dream your life away

Everything around is black with gloom,
At any given moment everything is pending doom.
The breath you take is all gasp for air.
I guess I am here to motivate you
So keep on going,
even though you need a rest,
Just keep on going somewhere there is hope.

Hope sometimes is all that’s left,
You can say “I’ve lost it all, it is just no use!
But I promise y’all that is no excuse.
But forget it all when we lost our all, we remember the bad
Remembering on the bad can be a lost of hope.

Go on for another day and remember the good times,
Push aside what others may say but some times pride get in the way.
This is your life I will sound crazy saying you can make a new start,
But if you start ignoring the brain and follow your heart.
Taking time setting up steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute hour by hour day by day you’ll build on to more hope.

Build your hope one day at a time,
My road sometimes is steep and hard to walk.
The hurts of the past they will never be dead.
The fears of the future was all I didn’t need
Just live in the present be prepared for the future forget the past and refuse to mope
And guess what my friend you are living in hope.

Granny, who I loved so much
I can’t believe you are no longer here on earth,
but I know you are in the heavens above,
The perfect guardian angel in Gods sky above
Every once in a while I feel low
I guess when I get back up that when you look down
Because now I am older I am able to see
God didn’t take you away from me
But I just realized that my Cousin Kierra Lewis was right
She is in a better place no more hurt or pain no more rushing to the hospital
I also have realized God made her an angel with wings to fly
To look after all Gods children from up above in the sky
But no one knows how hard it not to see you any more
Oh Granny how much I miss your smile and your laughter
You was so full of life, the strongest women I ever knew
Now your an angel soaring high in the sky
Our maker have brought his strongest soldier home
The pain I have I to this day can’t believe you was gone
I asked God why, why take the person I loved more then all
Granny, I adored you so much, I see why you did some of the things you did
And it have made a better men of me today
This is not all that made you my favorite teacher of all
You have prepared me for life,
Teaching me so much and so many life lessons before you left
How much I miss you words can’t explain you will never be forgotten
I remember everything your voice, your scent, and your every feature.
I love you and miss you so much Granny when I think of you tears come to my eyes
I never listened to Michel Jackson but your not alone made me cry worse when you was gone
I call your phone and can’t believe its not you picking up saying, Hey child, what you doing?
Or you and yo moma coming down here aint it how much I miss her
My Aunt remind me of her alot her grown ups are my closest and most favorite family members
my top to male cousins Sammy Lewis, Jatavias Lewis, and two favorite cousins in the whole wide WORLD Civora Lewis-Gray and Kierra Lewis

Rest In Peace Cloria M Lewis
I will let you rest now peacefully in the heavens above

A family death always leaves a hole that cannot be filled and love that can’t be replaced. For me no one can ever take the place of my Grandma in the world. Why try to comfort the family by saying, “it was her time anyway”, or, “she was suffering”. They are words of comfort but later however, there will be time of mourn in sometimes the main reason is realizing the fact that things will never be the same. One minute she was here and now she is gone. Our family know that my grandma (Cloria Lewis) loved us all from our first breath and have been here for us over the years to guide us along the paths that our lives are taking along with teaching us that there is nothing we can’t make it through and to hold our faith and follow our hearts to give us her all and not ask for nothing in return is true love. Its amazing that we carry her with us each and everyday and probably don’t know it. Mostly in our hearts and our thoughts, but if I was to think about the sun uprising I would be reminded of the warmth of her love, Flowers blooming will remind us of her love for life and plants, and last but not least the things we go through better known as our trials and tribulations will remind us all of her strength, and she was strong in the time when we needed her most when my Uncle Tracy time came she stayed strong and didnt show us no weakness helping us get through but to loss the person who help the family get through in our hard time is a major lost and was a even bigger blow because I loved my uncle so much and not seeing him daily coming to visit is hard, but my Grandma not being her is a even harder one. The whole Lewis & Smith family will mourn for our great loss but rejoice that you are in a better place sitting with your mother, sons, and loved ones, awaiting our arrival one day. There is a part of her in each and every person that hears or reads this with a relative who died grandmothers and mothers the most but I am so honored that she was a part of my life. But the way I think of her is a beautiful angle who said O’Lord please leave me here holding on not wanting to go but God knows all to well and said no it was her time to go leaving behind children grandchildren great grandchildren and friends such a meaning for life that came to an end but I dont let that get in my way because like God knew so well it was her time I know so well a angel she was meant to be and I think of all she can see watching over our family night and day keeping us safe telling us she love us in her own special way so while in the day I walk in live life to the fullest at night I remember my Grandma and sometime I still cry while she watches us all from her star in the sky I have so many worries about life I want to just leave this dirty world and just be with you and uncle Tracy watching over our family . . sometimes I want to just give in I don’t even know what to do I watch for signs could have died and a wreck walking out with no marks let me know you was watching over me and that it was not my time to go but what is it for me to do when all I want to do is be with you why do people worry me about so much? why am I still being stressed with a lot of pain? maybe this was some of the same things you went through but made it through but I will try because I know your trials and tribulations are way bigger then mine!

Love you Granny the most loving person I ever had in my life and Uncle Tracy the fastest driver on my list!
R.I.P

Imperfection is inherited, therefore we all sin, fighting the war of sin is the greatest war, in someway we all sin and no matter how hard we fight we all die in the end so even though im marked for death im gone spark till I lose my breath! Only God can judge me . . so that which does not kill me can only make me stronger.

Everyday we encounter a challenge and have the freedom to choose how to react therefore every decision that we make leads us down a different road. Its gone be some stuff we gone see in our life time thats gone make it hard to smile but if you tagged in this im a phone call away, even if I aint call your name, if you tagged you mean some. So through all the rain and the pain I be facing im gone try and make all yall smile. Sometimes we say if we can take it all back to the start things a be differnet but I think at some point we will still have the same outcome, I wouldnt change none same CrazyToDeath Raven Boggan I dont even know how to explain us its crazy enough said she know what I mean, same most favoritest cousins Kierra and Civora they retarts for real dont let the smartness fool you,  Erika can be the biggest jerk Lml jp she make a nigga laugh just by a look, I pretty much get on her neves though on the low she really hate me Lol ,my same from day one nigga Kynard I go all behind my nigga Tiambi what it do Lol but Quoyah I just got to wreak her nerves whenever I can, thats my lil nigga though lol if she the murder im the case, Nija keep a nigga smiling and all that extra stuff I know she down with ya boy. But yeah Its a lot of mistakes I made that some speical came from, even ppl but there are ppl I met that was short standing or maybe its my amnesia growing Lol Betrayal apart of life to like I say, “I am blessed and still breathing and even though its hard Gods who I believe in”. Its some ppl I left out I know for a fact but yall know if your apart of my life or not and im out !

Sometimes I just don’t know! My mind is filled with wonder, I be so confused but I will maintain. I wonder when my nigga smile at me do he smile cause he my nigga or cause I need to change(that a fake nigga) its a fact I’m confused in a crazy way might be because of this pain, so how can I listen to my mind? I wonder about my death will I die from bullets of a broke hating nigga or my health, I’m to confused! Past relationships got me saying don’t put no chick before yo nigga, this relationship got me wanting to turn to a straight dog but I don’t know what to do, I remember always telling women, “Don’t take it out on me from what you been through with yo last dude, he ain’t me!” but I guess that was before I been through bad relationship after bad relationship. I might just be out for the single life for life pretty soon, you know I’m not a dog been raised round women and they all smart, so with these women I don’t know I am confused I know they all ain’t alike but most of them is. I got a million questions that I can answer myself but I got a billion more that just don’t make since but im out!